I decided to write
this blog not because I wanted to document my not so perfect pregnancy but
because I want to remember that through all the tough moments we were strong.
The past month since
the surgery has been really good for the most part. My grandma has taken over
the house and does all the cleaning and cooking. She keeps me company and makes
me really good food. I’m so grateful for her sacrifice to be here away
from her friends and the rest of her family. I love our talks and the way
she tries to keep my spirits lifted. Chad has also been so supportive; he
has taken care of me, the house, the finances, and our dog Scruffy.
Being on bed rest is
very frustrating to say the least. At the beginning it was really nice to
just relax in bed and watch a movie or surf the Internet for cute baby things.
However, as the days pass everything becomes less and less entertaining. I
tried coloring, word searches, cross- stitch, brushing up on my French and even
creating a mobile for the baby. These are great however none of that will
entertain you once the rut comes along. I think doctors are right it is so easy
for women to get depressed while on bed rest because once you reach the rut it
is very hard to pull your self out. Mine happened last week I didn't want
to do anything. I would literally look out my window and just stare. It
was scary!!! When Chad came home he could see it. I explained to him the
best I could and he said its okay. He was right it’s normal to feel low.
Especially for someone like me who was used to doing everything for myself,
having such busy day and not really having a moment to breath. So I
allowed myself to have a bad day. The next day I made sure I did
something that would occupy my time. That is another reason why I wanted
to write this blog, every month I scheduled time to update it and remind myself
that I was strong and that I am one month closer to meeting our baby boy.
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